Walking the Wall

Star light, star bright
First star I see tonight
I wish I may, I wish I might,
Have this wish I wish tonight.

We said this in the car at
1am on the ride home from the hospital tonight (or rather, this
morning). My son’s wish was quite long, I would love to know what it
was, but that, of course, would ruin the wish. I know what my wish was,
but I can’t say that either, its too important to jinx it. It,s been a
long weekend and a long night ending with a run to the emergency room
where we confirmed that my son had pneumonia–we caught it fast and all
should be fine in a few days. The funny thing is, I was usually the one
as he was little boy to push for a checkup when I just “knew” something
wasn’t right. I followed my gut more than my head because it was my job
to make sure that he got the best care possible. He’s fifteen now, I
forget that sometimes because of his size and he IS my little boy no
matter how old he is. Even though I thought, well, it will sort itself
out, give it the night and we’ll call in the morning. He listened to
his body, he “knew” something was wrong, and he insisted, “Mom,
something just doesn’t feel right, it hurts badly, it needs to be
checked”…at first the doctors listened, didn’t hear anything
either…he showed the exactly where and low and behold the x-ray
confirmed he had pneumonia (his lungs are tricky and have always been
hard to hear pneumonia). He came out with some fast acting
antibiotics,  these x-rays (further proof I need to clean my scanner!), and a chance to wish on the first star he saw tonight–all in a days work.

I’m really proud of him for listening to his body, for following his
instincts even in the face of doctors saying it all sounds fine. I
don’t think that people follow their instincts enough, its been one of
my important issues along with finding balance in all things and I am
happy to see that he is learning that at a young age, life would go
along more smoothly, I believe, if we close off some of the outside
“noises” and listen to what our minds, bodies, and hearts are telling
us.